Frustrated and scared.

I am so crushed I cried most of yesterday. I want to have a natural med-free birth so bad. I had an AWFUL-A!W!F!U!L! c/s with DD and I have done so much to keep that from happening again. Bradly classes, doula, new doc, new hospital, etc. Yesterday at my sono I heard the dreaded word...breech. I am seeing a chiro, started inversions, sit indian style, pray, pray, pray.

Please pray that this little bugger turns to the right position. I know I still have time, but I feel so sad. I am so upset, I was so dumb the first time and this time I am so prepared. Why did God send me all this knowledge just to rip away my chance to use it?

OK, I'm done now, pity party done...I think.